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When you write rpf fic,

What inspires you to write? Canon moments, dynamics, evolution of their r/s or a story fits them?
Why do you post? To share your enthusiasm about the pair/fandom? To grow an audience? To find a community?
When it comes to romance and the build up, do you write things based on experience? Do you write based on canon moments/interactions and contemplate how they could develop? Do you write tropes you like first and later pick a pair that fits?
Do you write based on what you think is love or what you think the pair would see as love?
When you write their backgrounds, do you choose certain narratives because of experiences or because it would fit the story (ex: growing up privileged vs growing up in rough conditions)? Because it's comfortable to write at this point?
When you write AU, do you stick to their personalities completely or alter them based on the background you gave them?
Does characterization matter to you? To what extent it matters?
How you do decide the POV? Do you prefer writing from your bias' pov or the other way around? Why do you prefer that?
How do you decide the conflict of the fic? Based on one character's issue, on their r/s or a combo of both?
Do you have limitations? Are there certain topics/concepts you stray from because of the blurry ethics with rpf?

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this got so long i'm sorry 😭😭 hopefully these answer your follow-ups well!

re: upbringing in canonverse fics, i start with just the details the idols have shared themselves to inform their upbringing. if i encounter a situation where i want to check something i'm unsure about, i'll go digging for info, and if i don't find an answer or find something that's unverified, i'll factor in my story's plot and tweak characterization accordingly. i won't lie, sometimes i feel like my interpretations of my pov characters are bland or all the same because of that baseline, but i also try to write canon comp adhering really close to ~reality~ (doing extensive research, checking small details, having a tight/consistent timeline) so i'd rather have that than do more speculation and run into that trap of projection, like i tended to do when i only wrote AU

re: writing biases i do want to say both LOL but i think these days it's more about "canon-supported complexity" for me! i tend to end up being a fan of idols who say/do things that make me pause and really Feel that their on-camera personas heavily overlap with how they are off-camera. there's a kind of tension there between public and private that's really compelling to me, and i think i love them more because they [feel they have to] maintain that balance in order to meet the expectations of fans and the public, so my version of waxing poetic is letting them be complicated ^^

jiheon is my fromis bias wrecker and i feel like there is a bit of a distance between her idol and off-camera selves (could be wrong about that but i support whatever protections she might put up, considering how much hate she's gotten over the years 💔) but i hadn't come across anyone writing her growing up not just in terms of drinking age and being a college student, but putting in the kind of work and experiencing the complicated transformation she did to get to where she is now. exactly what you said about childishness v maturity and learning what you can and can't have control over in life/in an entertainment career! (and thank you so much for reading and enjoying that fic ;_;)re: retrospring speaking of adhering close to ~reality~ in canonverse and idol v "real" selves! it's tough because on one hand, i try to honor canon and [my understanding of] the idols as they present themselves on-camera/in public, but on the other hand, i'm very cognizant about writing idol rpf with characters who are fictionalized versions of idols/their public personas. staying aware of that first and foremost, i find it easier to push certain traits, thought processes, and so on toward their extremes because i'm writing characters, not a transcript. i don't wanna say i'm not afraid of stepping on people's toes, especially when it comes to writing about things like/related to idols' mental health (the never-ending discourse about how to write skz jisung comes to mind, but also i explored jiheon's anxiety and tried to be careful about how i did so), but i approach fic as someone who wants to write and critique art/media for a living, and i want my characters to have realistic conflicts. sometimes that looks like jiheon projecting her worries and insecurities onto wonyoung, sometimes that looks like seungmin being hot and cold with his feelings toward hyunjin because emotions could wait until after they debut but them debuting together isn't guaranteed (ooh canon divergent wip tease)

re: sex in rpf i've been reading explicit rpf for much longer than i should have lmao but it didn't start feeling weird to me until i was an adult and reading about people i was a big fan of. early in being a kpop fan, i read more nct and twice fic than skz fic, and then it took a sec to go from sfw skz fic to nsfw, and slightly longer to read nsfw fic from hyunjin or seungmin's perspectives because those were people whose minds i was beginning to study and explore in my own writing. that hesitation was never "this shouldn't exist" or "i shouldn't be reading this", but i was hyperaware that i was Reading Explicit Fanfic about people i like and watch in videos. this summer, that feeling came up again and went away in time when i got into wanna one. kind of like my thing about being cognizant about writing rpf overall, i had to consciously divorce the people on screen from the ones having sex in writing, even if i'm reading canonverse. detaching like that makes it easier for me to process/enjoy/have those conversations with myself around intimacy et al. honestly any issues i have with that are my own fears cropping up, and i'm more thankful that the fic exists for me because i have to question those fears instead of taking them out on others 🤸🏽

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